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#170844 49 Wed Oct 12 19:00:07 1994 [if i could id leave] john hinkley [im sorry]
im richie dagger
#176019 49 Tue Oct 25 20:54:36 1994 john hinkley [youre bored]
ive decided it would have been nice to grow up having a person thats kind of like a second father or something. like an adult best friend. that is somethign that is diggable but also very remote especially this late.
#176086 49 Tue Oct 25 23:05:44 1994 [ill give you something] Spur [to bleed about]
not too late, not too late, i got one at 16.
#176095 49 Tue Oct 25 23:49:06 1994 Prick
i adopt people as role models alot, it always just ends up hurting me, makes me stronger in a way i guess never had a surrogate dad-type thing, not that i remember anyway. i suppose deadman was sorta like that, but he never respected me a bit, and i think that means quite alot to being a dad figure.
#176104 49 Wed Oct 26 00:43:45 1994 Danger
why not just keep your own dad?
#176813 49 Wed Oct 26 09:48:45 1994 [mention the economy] Prick [do a shot]
because my dad like many other dads doesnt connect much.
#176814 49 Wed Oct 26 09:49:44 1994 [mention the economy] Prick [do a shot]
dads aren't supposed to. so you look for somebody, a friend, who doesn't have the pretense of being a dad
#177346 49 Wed Oct 26 15:56:15 1994 [information] Joan Vermin [shmyway]
i dont' have adult friends like that unless you count like punk or you guys or something
#177386 49 Wed Oct 26 22:17:58 1994 john hinkley [youre bored]
i mean like a best friuend who is an adult. somebody who you hang out with all the time maybe even if something else is happening. somebody who watches you go through shit and knows exactly whats going on and knows what to tell you. i dont know. theres romance in it, to me. woudlnt even have to ber a guy. could be a woman but that would make it totally different so i guess a guy might be necessary. nathan> who was yours?
#177409 49 Wed Oct 26 23:40:34 1994 [ill give you something] Spur [to bleed about]
deadman. no, he didnt really respect me that much, but that feels more dad like, doesnt it? dads dont respect their kids. they mold them. kids respect dads, kids learn from dads, etcetera, not the other way around.
#177437 49 Thu Oct 27 00:41:21 1994 Prick
deadman was, quite simply, a real asshole to me. there was no molding that took place. well, there was, but i believe it was all because of my efforts. he shook me off. consistently. i mean, basically, deadman never gave me any clue of what was "right" in his mind, he just made it obvious that he figured i was wrong about just about everything. i think that he was a positive influence on me, but given a choice i don't think i would have dealt with him. it just hurt a whole lot for a long time and i think it could've been done in a much nicer way. fuck, i don't fucking know. if you say i'm wrong about any of that, i'll just slaughter you.
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